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Category Archives: passive aggressive abuse
I want it to be Friday
Five times that I’ve gone to equine therapy, and now each week seems to stretch out a little longer between sessions. Getting in touch with feeling splashes of sanity and happiness have also seemed to intensify feeling the impact of … Continue reading
Posted in equine therapy, passive aggressive abuse, passive aggressive husband
Tagged afraid, angry, pain
36 Comments
I don’t want to be passive aggressive
Right as I was finishing the previous post, I got up to talk with him before he left to drive to town on errands. I had a short grocery list, and checked to make sure he remembered his wallet. We … Continue reading
Posted in passive aggressive abuse, passive aggressive husband
Tagged faithless, good intentions, grace, mercy, risk, survive
6 Comments
No reason to stay
His passivity about his abusive behaviors, and his self-pity are driving me crazy. Really. Like I want to shout to the world just everything. Every gritty, ugly, and humiliating detail. Let the chips fall and the cookies crumble. And I … Continue reading
Posted in passive aggressive abuse, passive aggressive husband
Tagged change, crazy, selling, solution, sorry, unbearable
7 Comments
Name that feeling
Questions that I hear in therapy: What are you feeling right now? Where do you feel it? Which part of your body? The same wonderful white horse was waiting for me again. This time I was ready with some apple … Continue reading
Posted in equine therapy, passive aggressive abuse, PTSD
Tagged affection, feelings, happiness, happy, trust
3 Comments
Counting apples
I had our piano tuned yesterday, and I feel almost amazed that I’ve gone from what was a very long time (financially) of counting apples (to make sure there were enough for school lunches), to being able to pay someone … Continue reading
This morning’s argument
Our two youngest daughters have been sharing the responsibilities for the cat we adopted from their older sister. This cat has won the hearts of the entire family, but he’s also been battling cancer, and so gets special supplements on … Continue reading
Posted in passive aggressive abuse
Tagged anger, angry, argument, punish, punishment, resent, resentment
1 Comment
Reflections on shopping
I’ve been thinking about my shopping comments from this post. To those who aren’t familiar with my background (or passive aggressive men), it’s another subtle dynamic that plays out. My experience with my husband is that when I’ve gotten to … Continue reading
What I still feel
I’ve been concerned about how dull I’ve felt. Gray, washed out, and non-caring. I’ve felt little enthusiasm about starting plants for the garden, and because of that, already missed opportune windows for starting some from seed. Morning began around 5:00 … Continue reading
Posted in equine therapy, passive aggressive abuse
3 Comments
Much better
Third session today, and it was so much better than last week. S4 was the driver, and he was more of a quiet presence for part of it, and then off visiting with the other horses for the rest. I … Continue reading
Posted in equine therapy, horses, passive aggressive abuse
Tagged equine therapy, horse, therapist, trauma
1 Comment
TGI (almost)F
No, it’s not Friday yet, but I am giving thanks that I have therapy to look forward to. Not sarcastic, quite sincere, and very grateful. Last Friday (the second session) was draining and difficult, but not so much from what … Continue reading
Posted in equine therapy, passive aggressive abuse, recovery from abuse
Tagged equine therapy, horse, mother, mothers, son, sons, therapist, therapy
3 Comments